Susie Q's Ashes

A lot of my blogs are not currant and have been waiting in my documents to get here and obviously this is one of them. 
Got internet access at home yesterday, now I can start blogging on my blog site but yet here I still am.  Not feeling that secure about it yet.  After church rode with Jeremy up to Five Mile Creek to meet others to spread Susie Q’s ashes.  Some were drinkin, some were tweekin and some were clean.  It was a beautiful day and a beautiful spot, one of Susie’s favorites.  It was the first time that I had been up Big Hill since I came down and got clean.  It is never that easy for me to be around people from a long time ago, hell it’s not that easy for me to be around people from now.  I don’t seem to fit anywhere.  Straight people are too straight and people that aren’t straight I can’t hang out with anymore.  There are others like me but sometimes far and few in between.  God is my focus and anything else is a distraction.  Someone offered me some dope; I was confused for a moment but revived.  I always say that if someone put it in front of me I don’t know what I would do, thank God they just said the words and I didn’t have to see it.